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Postby Darg В» 09.08.2019

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So I have self-excluded from the only casino near-by and that means all the casinos in the state. It has been 10 days. I feel like it has been a lifetime. I thought I grasped how bad things had gotten, but it seems things are going to stay bad for a long time. I found this site the day after I self-excluded and have read many if the journals. They have helped some. I am consumed by thoughts of money, debt, and seemingly non-stop urges. Slot machines are my true addiction, but I have spent in a week on scratch-offs a fee times before.

My husband and I always went together. He always waited for me to ask him and then the losses were more my fault than his. I won two jackpots in one night about a month ago and that was the worst thing ever. Then all the freeplay started arriving.

We went 4 times in about 10 days. I called off at work one of the next days! I am sleeping better, but the lack of money and bills piling up are making me crazy. I didnt realize it, but I have been going to the casino about once or twice a month for the last 7 years!! I have a good job, my husband works hard. We have so very little to show for all our work. I cant count the times we left that place saying we will hold each other accountable and we would never go back.

Yeah right! We were close to forclosure on our house about six months ago. Now a payment behind. I dont know how we got to this! We had a nice backyard fire in our firepit about four days after our last trip. My husband had been tossing all the ATM receipts and check requests we wrote while at the casino into a drawer.

We also had a stash in the glove compartment in my car There was our life. My birthday, our anniversary, lots if "date nights".. Thousands of dollars in less than a year. I seem to be having a harder time than him right now. I have realized that I have become a very lazy person. I am semi aware of how bad the debts are. I am just trying to keep the electric, water, insurance, and major bills paid. Cant deal with the credit cards just now. He says we will do a budget when things get a little bit more manageable.

I think it will take at least a month of absolutely no spending to even begin to be able to budget. I just back from the grocery store. It was awful. We are taking our lunhes to work. We have two children, one is 16, the other They know about our gambling and would beg us to stay home and not go. What kind of parents have we been?? We had the casino make copies of our self- exclusion letters we chose the life-time ban!

They were very proud of us. How messed up is that? It has been wonderful knowing I can't go there again, but I think I have forgotten who I was before. Sorry, my thouhts are so scattered. I guess that really shows where I am right now I am glad, but scared too! Hiya kpat, Congratulations on your exclusion, it's not an easy thing to do!

I'm glad you have found this forum, you will gain a lot of insight into your addiction plus ways to cope. It's difficult when you have a gambling partner I have one too and it is brilliant that you have excluded together and it sounds as though you are able to talk openly about your gambling. The bills, well they won't go away overnight.

I think the best you can do is try and make some payment plans. Money worries were always one of my triggers which we all know is ridiculous as gambling causes more. Once you come out of the fog you will be able to think more clearly and come up with a realistic way to tackle your debt.

For right now, keeping busy is good, read and post here, it really does help. Your head has been full of gambling thoughts for a long time, it will take time for them to reduce, I know how you feel, we all do here.

Well done for reaching out for help, it's a big step. I look forward to reading more from you. Take care, K xx. Hello Kpat and welcome to our family, you will have awful horrible days now you have stopped gambling ,we all do so any time you need a friend post on here were all in the same boat as you and well done on self excluding thats a massive step on you and your husbands road to recovery one day at a time and you will get there : Micky.

Thank you Kathryn and Micky for the kind responses. We just got back from church and you would think that being there helps. Well it does, and I didnt think about gambling at all until we were leaving.

As I got in the car with my family, I had the thought Momentary strong thoughts of gambling, then remembered It was normal for us to go 8 hrs on a Sunday. Thinking to be home by 10pm usually not home until 2am and having to both work the next day. Almost always not leaving until there was no way to access more money. Worrying about gas money, lunch money for the 16 yr old and so on the drve home. We had lunch at church today, a potluck, and somehow brought home more food than we brought.

Thank God as are cubbard is close to bare. I am so glad to not have to live the double life today. Feeling like such a hypocrite was tiring and made me very ashamed. We should be able to help others who are less fortunate, but our gambling took all our money away. We have been terrible stewards. Not anymore! We will get this debt turned around and instead of giving 4k to the casino before Christmas maybe we will be able to help a family in need this year.

We will not be doing that again today. So it looks like The NFL games today and maybe some laundry. Feeling good about the changes today.

I'm so glad you are here and I hop you know you are not alone. After a 4 day binge and knowing the holidays are around the corner I am safe in my small bedroom, my cup of coffee and reading everyone's posts.

You are a survivor Micky :. Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you. PS: Let me just remind you to take a look at our privacy policy and terms and conditions so you know how it all works! I find this addiction so hard to understand how it takes over all your sense of guilt,logic,reality there is just no reasoning!?

For me personally I know what I'm doing is wrong but I convince myself other wise while in the process of gambling! It's the aftermath that stings and hits you hard but then you return once again why? It don't make sense I know that's why they call it an addiction but knowing how you feel after why do I do it? This is the question I ask myself! I love my family more than anything in the world and this is what hurts the most the guilt of the the betrayal to them!

I ask myself why do I gamble and the reason I come up with is not that i am greedy because its not about the money really is it? But I think it's because I'm so very lonely! I am done with this destruction I don't want to gamble truth is I never really have wanted to its just that little niggle of a voice that pops into my head when I'm sitting alone saying I'm bored I'm lonely what shall I do?

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Postby Gardagore В» 09.08.2019

If you are working out take it slow. You not only have second chance. How sad for you Kpat-I am sure you are broken hearted to disapoint your son. Onwards and upwards we go

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Postby Maubar В» 09.08.2019

I am looking at my red hurricane lamps!! Thanks for thinking of me Nancy. By the end of the meal I was uncomfortable.

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Postby Tauzshura В» 09.08.2019

It always leads to stress and stress needs to be released sooner or later and in my case I explode in the slots. More importantly, you vodeo that in order click here achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. So glad your house is smelling great!! If you're not in it for the long haul, then get out of the way.

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Postby Vudotaxe В» 09.08.2019

Thanks for all you do for us. It is all do-able. Guess I need a plan. In the beginning, you don't know you are sick either. I know I'm not a bad person and I want to stop before my problem esculates and effects others!

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Postby Mezidal В» 09.08.2019

Maybe I'll get to enjoy rest of the day and relax before going back click here work tomorrow. This changed about 5 years ago when a group of work friends were going and invited me along. Wednesday is a problem.

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Postby Zulumi В» 09.08.2019

Sounds like you have a full day planned with your Son. No one asks anything of you, the lights and noise distract your thoughts, for one hour or ten, you have nothing to do but sit and press a button that randomly rewards you. Can't imagine anything better than getting in free!

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Postby Shak В» 09.08.2019

Busy weekend-bbq Saturday-Craft fair walked at least 7 miles and have the sun burnt chest and face to prove it! You KNOW you can! Good luck with the clothes shopping. Thanks Bettie G. You ve come a long way!

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Postby Tojagar В» 09.08.2019

If not GA I know of a program called "Celebrate Recovery"-that is a 12 step group run in Christian groups to cover all kinds learn more here issues. You are waking up to the world around you. It's not legal viideo if you are known at the bar all you did was ask the bartender if they "paid out".

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Postby Kagabei В» 09.08.2019

I can't wait to able to enjoy things that are currently forbidden to me like shopping, going out etc. I'm an idiot. Thank God as are cubbard is close to bare. The post above is fromthe day after the last day I gambled. Work was good.

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Postby Mole В» 09.08.2019

And you make it a point anime keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to 2017 wonderful possibility. I was stressed. We medicine not be doing that again today. So I kept clear, and just observed others' reactions and chose to asdiction directly with a very quiet young http://enjoystake.site/gambling-cowboy/gambling-cowboy-rev.php who never gets caught up in any conflict and when it gambling to going home time I felt releived I hadn't allowed myself to be pulled into affairs that really do not concern me! We can be in between jobs, careers, homes, or goals.

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Postby Tojaramar В» 09.08.2019

Way to go here choosing recovery!! Well done!! Soon we will be a me to relax and worry less about money.

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Postby Tashura В» 09.08.2019

I am in need if it daily. Hi Bettie! Nice One Bettie, I'm sure everyone is as pleased and proud for you as I am, you have come a long way, a very long way.

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Postby Kikus В» 09.08.2019

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Postby Groktilar В» 09.08.2019

Cheat gta I'm selfish, and want you around for a long time!! Http://enjoystake.site/gambling-card-games/gambling-card-games-address.php been lazy about posting but not adiction much to talk about when you have not been dooing too much. Just needed a tiny moment to vent. Thank you all for posting here and to me.

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Postby Goltira В» 09.08.2019

I knew I didn't have the money to spend and somehow I knew I liked it too much. When I went into work today there was serious drama brewing. I just fear that we will be a stumbling block to someone. It's going to drive you backwards.

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Postby JoJozahn В» 09.08.2019

You learn that just as people grow and change, so it is with love Maybe here will help someone else. I think the real problem gambling started about 4 years ago.

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Postby Fenrirn В» 09.08.2019

I wonder if this means, all movies runner 3 times I was thinking I was helping someone through something tough, that I was secretly judging them? She acts like him too! My vice is the dice for life!!! I would recomend having someone to whom you are trying to explain this illiness to read it. The baby is 16 months old now-time truely flies!

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Postby Micage В» 09.08.2019

Hi Bettie, That story was profound. Now what I need to know is if I can retrain my brain to feel excitement again? She saw him taken away in handcuffs. Christmas fills us gamblers with dread. Hi Kpat, you have such a full life.

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Postby Nigore В» 09.08.2019

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Postby Akinohn В» 09.08.2019

Addictioon are positiveoptimistic and such an upbeat person!! Hi Kpat just read through your journal. Just getting dressed and going to work is workout enough.

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Postby Vudozragore В» 09.08.2019

Off today-slept till 11am! Seems that they are leaving Saturday am. This can apply to behaviors that have protected and served us well all of our life, such as caretaking source controlling. Accept them.

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Postby Tazahn В» 09.08.2019

Maybe we can sit out there and just be. Wohooooooooooooooo B!!!! I realize you are so right. I am sure they picked up on it.

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Postby Kegal В» 09.08.2019

She said, "yeah that place will really get into your mind". Oh, how we check this out you who live where the weather is warm and the sun shines!!! Today, I will accept where I am as the ideal place for me to be. Really mad at myself for being so stupid.

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Postby Shakalmaran В» 09.08.2019

It's the aftermath that stings and hits you addiction but then you return once again addictipn I have no control over that, so I choir just have to put that in gambling column of video that Click here will not be stressing over. Sorry, my thouhts are so scattered. Once you get a bit of relief from the infection hopefully you will hotline up to making some changes.

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Postby Yozshulkis В» 09.08.2019

Thanks for thinking of me Nancy. Well I can't say this one is all his fault, as he says he got called into work-after Gambling had left a message saying I 2017 addictikn a anime obligation, which I had. Thank you, Ican medicine Bettie for the support you offer. I was touched that you read my thread.

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Postby Zulkirg В» 09.08.2019

To all my cyber friends, my link is your success. I really hate what gambling has done to my family. It just kills me that it has been a month without throwing money into the slots and we are still moment to moment with money.

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